I have always wanted to be a one hundred percent perfect, flawless person, all organised to the extent that I want things to be just as I planned them in my head. When things don’t go as planned, I argue with the universe about its timing and uncertainty. I always wanted to be the master of my life. I hate dosai when I had planned to eat pizza. I hate happy surprises during my exams because I had time scheduled. I hate getting calls when I had planned to do something else. I hate when someone interrupts my well-planned to-do list. I hate opinions on stuff after I clearly sort them out. I hate compliments and have never sought external validation. This was so me.
My recent watch included the movie ‘The Perks of Being a Wallflower’. This is an amazing movie about a boy who is introverted and suffering from Post Traumatic Stress Disorder (PTSD) and does not enjoy being in the moment. Life matches him with beautiful people, and the movie ends with the words, ‘WE ARE INFINITE’. We are clusters of stardust, but the right ones; this movie made me perceive the world beautifully and made my heart smile.
It took me a whole year to realise that I’d been toxic, not cherishing the little things and enjoying the little moments in life. I never knew compliments make you feel better, chocolates can put a smile on your face, there are humans who can understand you and match your vibe, little things can be souvenirs, and these are everything you exist for. It's been exactly a year since I started blogging on Substack. I wrote my first blog two months before I promoted it, doubting that anybody would ever read it, (forever grateful to every soul who reads my blog cause you guys lift me at my rock bottom) but here I am, writing my heart out, falling for compliments, and loving every bit of the world a little more.
“I know these will all be stories someday. And our pictures will become old photographs. We'll all become somebody's mom or dad. But right now these moments are not stories.”
- The Perks of Being a Wallflower.
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Great !! 😚🫂